I wish I could redo everything I’ve done wrong this weekend, I really do. I want to go back in time and turn my stupid and dumb choices into something positive. My problem is I don’t think before I act, resulting in bad things. Friday had to be the most terrifying night of my whole entire life. Not to mention I ended up going to a bonfire I wasn’t invited or welcome to come to. How embarrassing, showing up somewhere when its obvious that no one wants you there. I guess lately I haven’t been making the best choices. Thats all a part of being young and its part of learning from my bad decisions but it still hurts knowing that I am capable of doing something like that. I’m so guilty and SO SORRY I don’t think I could apologize any more. I’m sorry for my bad choices and i’m sorry for ruining a party I had no business being at. I really hope no one asks me anything about this because I’ll probably cry if I have to talk about it again. Its in the past and that’s where the memory of this horrible night will stay